A ghost who can be seen

Hello sweeties,

I saw The Perks of Being a Wallflower this week. It first didn’t inspire me a lot. I mean, the film’s poster is probably one of the less attractive ones that I ever saw in my life. This awful green colour, yurk. I thought it was some Disney’s comedy. I was like “There’s no way for me to pay to see this, let’s wait until it goes on TV” (N.B.: I almost never watch trailers, because I’m dumb). But then some friends I didn’t see all together for a while suggested to go see it, so I eventually surrendered, because I’m super weak.

And it wasn’t such a bad idea after all. It was a pretty good one actually. There’s nothing original in the film story, but it is nice though. We get into the life of a reserved freshman. It’s his first high school year, he’s friendless and he’s being bullied. He believes it’s going to be the worst period of his life. But he’ll end up to see that he wasn’t totally right.

First thing that makes the film great : the cast. Ezra Miller whom we’re all in love with, Emma Watson whom we’re also all in love with, Paul Rudd whom we’re ALSO all in love with. We live in a beautiful world and we love everyone. Don’t forget Mae Whitman and Johnny Simmons who played Roxy and Young Neil in Scott Pilgrim vs The World, and we’re good.
I think Logan Lerman is nice as Charlie. He has that cute and friendly face, you know. Emma Watson was ok. But the dresser should have chosen better dresses for her because it really wasn’t flattering (hello swimmer’s shoulders). She could have been so much prettier. I really felt that her beauty wasn’t used, that’s a shame. Ezra Miller is hilarious in the film. For once, he’s not playing an insane kid. It’s nice to see him smiling and laughing without being unhealthy. WE WANT MORE OF THAT PLEASE.  He is without any doubt the star of the film.

Second thing that makes the film great : the soundtrack. The Smiths, David Bowie, New Order… How cool is that? I’m a huge fan of The Smiths (original eh), so I was quite happy to hear them there. Asleep is such a beautiful song.

Now, we’re getting emotional. I cried during the film. Yes, OKAY, I cry on almost every film. But here, it’s different. Charlie’s story speaks to me. I’m not crying because “he’s so romantic omg and his story is so sad omg”. It’s a bit more than that. My story isn’t as tragic as Charlie’s, the reason of my constant sorrow is fortunately not the same. But I know how it feels to be alone. Really alone. To be left in the corner. To feel like you belong to nowhere. And to feel like it’s never going to be better. I know these anxiety attacks. I know this loneliness disease. I know all that so well.

When I was younger, I was very shy too. I am still now a little, but I opened up a lot. I made so much progress. And when I was watching the film, I was seeing myself. I was Charlie. I was this guy who thinks he’s a ghost. Before realizing that he’s a ghost who can be seen. And I think it’s the case for a lot of us, more than we might think. 

We all think that no one can understand, no one feel what we feel. Because being depressed is a selfish state of mind. Yes it is, don’t look at me like that, I know you think the same. It is selfish. But you know what? Don’t hide from this, don’t be ashamed. Because it’s good to stop caring about others and to think about yourself instead. You are important. Do you read me? You matter.
I won’t go any further about this subject today. I’ll probably write something about it someday, if I feel the need and if you also feel the need. Know that you’re not alone, ok? You are not alone.

Sooo. So yes, The Perks of Being a Wallflower is another drama made in USA with a soundtrack for hipsters and disgusting sugary feelings and blah blah blah. But at least, this one means something for me.